[ Jo lets out a small shuddering breath and her vision clouds suddenly, at the definitiveness of that one word. Unexpected. And so goddamn needed it cuts her chest wide open, dumps everything from inside of it out in those four words, in a way so much deeper than any jagged, still scabbing piece of skin on her body. That he understands. What no one outside of this house would. That it'd look insane to anyone, anywhere else. But she can't.
They can't, and for a hard moment, hands fisting the basin edges of the sink until her abused bones are protesting up her arms and into her shoulders, she wishes he was here. Needs Cas to just be here. Now. With her. Do this. Help her. With Dean. (With herself. Letting herself have just one moment to really feel this. What happened. Just how fast, how violently.) Because she can't. Her eyes close hard. Refusing to let any tears fall. (Every muscle and inch of skin involved screaming fiercely at it, and she leans into the clean, blistering pain just as hard.) She's not done. That has to wait. There are more important things to do first.
She has to talk to Dean,
before he can build whatever wall he's already trying to. ]
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They can't, and for a hard moment, hands fisting the basin edges of the sink until her abused bones are protesting up her arms and into her shoulders, she wishes he was here. Needs Cas to just be here. Now. With her. Do this. Help her. With Dean. (With herself. Letting herself have just one moment to really feel this. What happened. Just how fast, how violently.) Because she can't. Her eyes close hard. Refusing to let any tears fall. (Every muscle and inch of skin involved screaming fiercely at it, and she leans into the clean, blistering pain just as hard.) She's not done. That has to wait. There are more important things to do first.
She has to talk to Dean,
before he can build whatever wall he's already trying to. ]
𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕟.
𝕎𝕖'𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕠𝕥 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕦𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕝 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖.